Alyssa Scott Mourns Her and Nick Cannon's Late Baby Zen Ahead of Valentine's Day: 'Missing You Extra'

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Alyssa Scottpublicly mourned the loss of her andNick Cannon’s son Zen ahead of Valentine’s Day.

“I can imagine us the night before Valentine’s Day filling out cards to hand to your classmates,” Scott captioned an Instagram carousel of her late son covered in red lipstick kisses. “All signed with your handwriting.. I know it would say: love, Zen. Every letter written with your tiny little hand.”

She also envisioned the treasured moments she would have shared with Zen if he was alive.

If she was given “one wish,” Scott revealed, it would be to “hold” her son again, adding, “I know everything around me would stand still. It would be just you and me.”

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Last month, Scott opened up about her grieving process during the holiday season, sharing an emotional post on her Instagram Story aboutwhat would have been Zen’s first Christmas.

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Cannon, 41,announced the devastating newsof the passing of his 5-month-old son during an appearance on his eponymous daytime showin December. Days after Zen’s death, Scott wrote aheartbreaking tributefor her late child.

“Oh my sweet Zen. The soreness I felt in my arm from holding you is slowly fading away. It’s a painful reminder that you are no longer here,” she wrote at the time. “I caught myself looking in the backseat as I was driving only to see the mirror no longer reflecting your perfect face back at me. When I close a door too loudly I hold my breath and wince knowing a soft cry will shortly follow. It doesn’t come. The silence is deafening.”

source: people.com